Going to Jacksonville Flordia for an appointment today. I have no expectations because without expectations there is no disapointment. I have sat in this office before and listened to options that I know we could never realistically achieve. I know Tom would be such a good daddy, he has proved it time and time again. I love watching him as he plays and teaches our foster babies never once puttin...g any less into it than he would if they were our own. In the middle of the night I have watched him respond to a cry or wimper and my heart fills with love at how tenderly he comforts away any fears the little one may have. I would love to be able to tell the next child that says mommy and daddy that yes I am your mommy and this is your home forever. I want so badly to be able to have more than one christmas or birthday. I thank God for the children that we have cared for because they make us a family for the time they are here and will always have a place in our heart, but when they go the pain and sorrow is more than I could ever explain, even when I know that it is what is ment to be. I have always tried to be a good "aunt Mindy" to all the kids that have entered my life and watched them grow from babies to teens to young adults even mothers themselves. God I only ask for a chance for me to do that with a child of our own. If it is your will, I pray you allow it to happen, if it is not well I will understand. Please give us the strength to go through this journey no matter what the outcome may be..............
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